马男波杰克第五季

第五季第二集 突然就想到Diane &Bojack的关系。

两个人是很好的朋友，但两个人是哪种朋友呢？

是那种我懂你，你也懂我的朋友。

是那种我在你面前全然表达真实感受不用伪装的朋友。

是可以展现脆弱的朋友。

因为真实就是破碎。

而这种懂得，是对生活无奈的懂得，是对丧的懂得。

是知道人间不值得，但还在挣扎的时候，相视一笑的“IGetIt”。

是外在体面，但一起喝酒就酩酊大醉，但醒来后还是尴尬的离场。

不然怎么办呢。

人间真实吗？

两个很丧的人，两个都很明白的人，但却活不明白，只能在各自的生活中奋力挣扎，期待出现一颗救命稻草，但终了或无所得。

他们好像是愿意“众人皆醉我独醒”的人，因为清醒，所以反而又用喝醉来伪装。

经常看到弹幕有人在刷，希望两个人在一起。

我说，两个人不能在一起，那么像的两个人，如果在一起，岂不是都要落到黑洞里，那里有深渊，并且即使低到尘埃也无法开出花来。

她的人生被毁灭了，于是她毁灭了另一个人，从而毁灭了很多其他的人。

这部剧的荒诞之处数不胜数，比如跟三个小孩伪装成的“男人”交往的PC、莫名其妙担任各种要职的Todd、因一句录音而当上公司老板的机器人等，无比荒诞中传递着无比合理的信息。

但最荒诞之处莫过于，主角是最大的反派：毫无责任心、不知廉耻、招摇撞骗、玩弄他人、黄赌毒样样精通……BoJack的罪孽可以说是罄竹难书，而这背后的始作俑者就是他的母亲，也是一个受害者。

Beatrice的童年在她哥哥死前可以称得上完美：事业有成的爸爸、当兵的哥哥，最重要的是她有一个柔情似水、贤良淑德、生了两个孩子依然保持少女身材的妈妈——像极了了不起的麦瑟尔夫人中的麦瑟尔夫人和致命女人中的Beth Ann。

这种笼罩在镜花水月中的完美有一个致命弱点就是，一切必须原封不动地按照既定轨道运行，只要有一丝偏差，就万劫不复。

更何况，发生在Beatrice和Beth Ann家庭中的偏差是那么地巨大——失去了孩子。

于是，一切假象在一瞬间破灭，温文尔雅的妈妈不再能handle everything，文质彬彬的爸爸也露出了真实的嘴脸，最终导致整个家庭分崩离析。

在CrackerJack死前，Beatrice的生活真有呈现出来的那么美好吗？

一个细节就可以证明，表面的万千宠爱后隐藏的仍然是根深蒂固的“嫌弃”：妈妈告诉她，雪糕是给男孩子们吃的，女孩子只能舔一舔冰块。

如果没有哥哥的死，Beatrice也许会继续生活在这种假象中，受着妈妈的潜移默化，变成和妈妈一样的女人，进入一个一样的家庭，过一样的人生。

她有两次可以改变命运的机会，一次是上大学，一次是结婚。

Beatrice的爸爸让她上大学的理由与我身边许多女性朋友的家长想法是一样的：我们花钱让你上大学是为了让你在婚姻市场上更有筹码，不是真的想让你成为什么女学者。

如果没有家庭变故，那么Beatrice大概率会成为麦瑟尔夫人。

可惜，她失去了妈妈这个榜样，童年受过霸凌，又在大学里接受了半吊子的新思想，于是变成了一个不伦不类的人。

择偶是她的第二次机会：本来有机会嫁给有思想有头脑甚至有颜值的富二代，却因意外怀孕而委身浪子，从此在“被嫌弃”的路上彻底无法翻身。

在又一个被什么都不知道的BoJack吵醒的半夜，她狠狠地对儿子、也对自己说：You'd better worth it。

因果循环，另一个生命又走上了被毁灭的道路，而被毁灭的自己的儿子，又在成年以后反过来继续嫌弃着她也被她嫌弃。

死前，她对自己的儿子说：I see you。

这句话到底是什么意思，我至今想不明白，也许BoJack也始终没有完全明白，他只知道，自己再也没有机会拥有一段正常的亲子关系了，只剩下getting worse这一种可能性了。

五季看下来，酣畅淋漓，没有任何违和或者烂尾的感觉。

只是第五季以BoJack去戒毒为结尾，让我不禁疑惑最终季会以怎样的形式收场。

显然，吸毒是果不是因，BoJack的人生不可能在戒毒之后就得到救赎。

But I still love BoJack, because when you think your life is a hole, look at BoJack and you will realize how lucky you are.

加缪在《局外人》中如此写道:“今天，妈妈死了。

也许是昨天。

我不知道。

我收到养老院的一封电报，说‘母死。

明日葬。

专此通知。

’这说明不了什么。

可能是昨天死的。

”冷漠的语气就是葬礼上波杰克的演讲一般。

又颓又丧的Bojack也迎来了这一天，他的妈妈碧翠丝死了，但是似乎没有什么改变，唯一感觉有变化的，可能就是波杰克得到了一份免费油条

Free churoo在原生家庭饱受折磨的波杰克也恨透了他的父母，同时原生家庭对波杰克的性格造成了严重的心理创伤。

也因此，当波杰克的妈妈过世了，波杰克并没有太大的感触，但是正如他自己所说“My mother is dead, everything become worse.”波杰克失去了最后一个逃避的借口，他又要面对他的酗酒、药物成瘾等等自己的糟糕事，而他，已经找不到逃避的借口了。

波杰克的做法像现实生活中部分人，为自己的不作为找借口，自己定下的flag，总是完不成，总有一堆理由来说服自己，但是你知道，那些都是借口，你只是不想做，问题不是那些事，问题还是在自己身上。

人总是不能随心所欲的做自己Diane在与Mr.Peanutbutter先生离婚之后状态也是如此，为此特意去了一趟越南，列出了十个去越南的理由，然而一个个的理由都经不起推敲，这些理由全都是借口，真正的原因，只是她不经意间看到花生酱先生用曾经揽着她的姿势去揽着新欢，这时的旅游只是逃避，当自己所有的借口被打破，剖去一切浮于表面之事，你的内心，其实一片荒凉。

“你以为你的心不会再破碎，但依然会再次被碾碎，于是你知道你可以忍受孤独”。

在波杰克的新剧《Philbert》中，波杰克的生活与他饰演的主角费尔伯特高度相似，加之波杰克药物依赖越来越严重，分不清角色与现实，精神恍惚，在片场差点错手掐死伙伴Gina。

最终，波杰克在戴安的帮助下决定面对自己的糟糕状况，去了戒毒所，而戴安也在经历低潮之后重回生活。

看完这部剧之后，其实有很多感想，但是很多你都说不出来，也不知道怎么去说。

在某种程度上，我们都是Philbert,面对着自己糟糕的人生，一面是人前天真烂漫人畜无害的正面形象，另一面则是心里住着一只“小恶魔”的自己；但又不可以把不好的一面展现在公众面前，只好费尽心力地去维护自己的正面人设。

就行Bojack一样，电视上是一个明星，但自己知道自己很糟糕

罗曼罗兰说过：“世界上只有一种英雄主义，那就是认清生活的真相之后仍然热爱生活。

”话虽如此，私以为不尽正确，我们都知道自己的状况，生活的真相很多时候都是像波杰克一样的颓、丧、无可奈何，这样还可以“热爱生活”吗？

或许有另一种如《海边的曼彻斯特》中主角李一样的生活方式，不与过去的自己和解，活在自己的过去中，也并没有什么不好，又颓又美丽。

我们总是被教导要坚强，要勇于面对生活，不惧困难诸如此类正面观念，却没人教我们，如何和那个颓废的自己、做了错事的自己和解，如何与那个丧失信念、丧气满满的自己一同生活。

我们看到太多的正能量，却不懂得如何宣泄自己的负能量 ，将负能量视为负面，看不到即便是负能量也是一种“能量”。

我们的人生就像溺水一般，我们不懂得如何去拯救对方，但是我们都明白对方的感受，并且一同被水淹没。

生活，就是如此。

（学英语用）音频Yes, yes, I see you. Get in. Get in.Your mother is having another one of her episodes. Last night, she went to seeA Doll’s Housewith a couple girlfriends, and now she has ideas. I emerged from my sanctum this afternoon to discover that not only had she not made me lunch, which is a meal I need in order to live, but she’d, furthermore, locked herself in the bedroom to weep. Loudly.Now it’s one thing for a woman to weep, but when they do it at such a volume you can hear it through the door, that’s when you know that they’re doing it just for the attention.Anyway, I was able to cobble together a sandwich for myself, so I’m the real hero of the story.[horn honking][tires screeching]It was a couple hours later when I realized I was on a good run with my novel. I had this really interesting sentence that kept going for pages and pages, and I thought about how rare it is to really get in the groove like that; how most days, I can’t concentrate because my idiot child is blasting the television and it suddenly dawned on me—hot cock on a rock, she never even picked up the little noise and snot factory![tires screech, horn honking]So, here I am, being your mother, which I know is giving you all sorts of mixed-up ideas about gender, while your brain is still loose and stupid. Just remember, if you become a queer later in life, this isn’t my fault! Don’t you sing no songs in your nightclub act called, “My Daddy was My Mommy,” while gazing longingly at a tangled string of pearls. Pearls are for ladies, BoJack. Pearls are for ladies.You know Sunday is my writing day. Sundays are the one day that are just for me and my craft, and still, you and the black hole that birthed you conspire to ruin it for me. What am I supposed to do now? Just go back to writing? I’m out of the zone now, the whole day’s shot! All because of you and that brittle wisp of a woman you made the mistake of making your mother.[sighs]No. It’s not her fault. She’s doing the best she can, after all. It’s just that… you can’t depend on women. You can’t depend on anyone. Sooner or later, you need to learn that no one else is gonna take care of you. That’s what I learned when I had to make my own sandwich. You can’t rely on other people, BoJack. It’s good for you to know that. And she’s a good mother for teaching you that. You’ve got a head start on most kids. You’re actually very lucky.[music continues over radio]Thaaaaank youuuuu?———So I stopped at a Jack in the Box on the way here, and the girl behind the counter said, “Hiya! Are you having an awesome day?” Not, “How are you doing today?” No. “Are you having anawesomeday?” Which is pretty… shitty, because it puts the onus on me to disagree with her, like if I’m not having an“awesome day,”suddenly I’m the negative one.Usually when people ask how I’m doing, the real answer is I’m doing shitty, but I can’t say I’m doing shitty because I don’t even have a good reason to be doing shitty. So if I say, “I’m doing shitty,” then they say, “Why? What’s wrong?” And I have to be like, “I don’t know, all of it?” So instead, when people ask how I’m doing, I usually say, “I am doingsogreat.”But when this girl at the Jack in the Box asked me if I was having an awesome day, I thought, “Well, today I’m actually allowed to feel shitty.” Today I have a good reason, so I said to her, “Well, my mom died,” and she immediately burst into tears. So nowIhave to comforther, which is annoying, and meanwhile, there’s a line of people forming behind me who are all giving me these real judgy looks because I made the Jack in the Box girl cry. And she’s bawling, and she’s saying, “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” and I’m like, “It’sfine. It’s fine.” I mean, it’s notfinebut, you know, it’s… fine. And I would like to order a Double Jack Meal, and I’ve kinda got somewhere to be, so maybe less with the crying and more with the frying, huh? [inhales] And the girl apologizes again and she offers me a free churro with my meal. And as I’m leaving, I think, “I just got a free churro because my mom died.” No one ever tells you that when your mom dies, you get a free churro.[people murmuring][clears throat]Anyway, I’m sorry, that’s not part of the… [clears throat] All right. Okay, here we go. Let’s do this. Here I am, BoJack Horseman, doing a eulogy, let’s go. Hey, piano man, can I get a, like an organ flourish? [organ plays] Nicely done. You know, I was a little worried I wouldn’t have the right accompaniment today. I guess it’s a good thing my mom was anorgandonor! [rimshot plays] What happened to the organ? [horn ‘oogahs’] Okay, why just leave the comedy to the professionals? Okay? This is a funeral, sir, for my mother. Can you show a little respect? [trumpet whines] I’ll take it.Beatrice Horseman, who was she? What was her deal? Well, she was a horse. Uh, she was born in 1938. She died in 2018. One time, she went to a parade, and one time, she smoked anentire cigarettein one long inhale. I watched her do it. Truly a remarkable woman.[rustling]Lived a full life, that lady. Just, all the way to the end, which is, uh, now I guess. Really makes you think, though, huh? Life, right? Goes by, stuff happens. Then you die. Okay, well that’s my time, you’ve been great! Tip your waitress! No, I’m just kidding around, there’s no waitress. But seriously, that’s all I have to say about my mother. No point beating a dead horse, right? So…[inhales] Now what? I don’t know. Mom, you got any ideas? Anything? Mom? No? Nothing to contribute? Knock once if you’re proud of me.Can I just say how amazing it is to be in a room with my mother, and I can just talk and talk without her telling me to shut up and make her a drink? Hey, Mom, knock once if you think I should shut up. No? You sure? I mean, I don’t want to embarrass you by making thiseulogy into a me-logy, so, seriously, if you wanted me to sit down and let someone else talk, just knock. I will not be offended. No? Your funeral.Sorry about the closed casket, by the way. She wanted an open casket, but uh, you know, she’s dead now, so who cares what she wanted? No, that sounds bad. I’m sorry. I-I think that if she could’ve seen what she looked like dead, she’d agree it’s better this way. She looked like this.[groaning][mourners gasping]Kinda like a pissed-off toy dinosaur. The coroner couldn’t get her eyes closed, so now her face is forever frozen in a mask of tremendous horror and anguish. Or as my mom called it, Tuesday! Tuesday! My mom called it Tuesday.[woman coughs]Hey, Mom, what did you think of that joke? You like that? You never did care for my comedy.[clears throat]Here’s a story. When I was a teenager, I performed a comedy routine for my high school talent show. There was this, uh, cool jacket that I wanted to wear because I thought it would make me look like Albert Brooks. For months, I saved up for this jacket. But when I finally had enough, I went to the store and it was gone. They had just sold it to someone else. So, I went home and I told my mother, and she said, “Let that be a lesson. That’s the good that comes from wanting things.” She was really good at dispensing life lessons that always seemed to circle back to everything being my fault.But then, on the day of the talent show, my mother had a surprise for me. She had bought me the jacket. Even though she didn’t know how to say it, I know this meant that she loved me.Now that’s a good story about my mother. It’s not true, but it’s a good story, right? I stole it from an episode ofMaudeI saw when I was a kid, where she talks about her father. I remember when I saw it, thinking, “That’s the kind of story I want to tell about my parents when they die.” But I don’t have any stories like that. All I know about being good, I learned from TV. And in TV, flawed characters are constantly showing people they care with these surprising grand gestures. And I think that part of me still believes that’s what love is. But in real life, the big gesture isn’t enough. You need to be consistent, you need to be dependably good. You can’t just screw everything up and then take a boat out into the ocean to save your best friend, or solve a mystery, and fly to Kansas. You need to do it every day, which isso… hard.When you’re a kid, you convince yourself that maybe the grand gesture could be enough, that even though your parents aren’t what you need them to be over and over andoveragain, at any moment, theymightsurprise you with something… wonderful. I kept waiting for that, the proof that even though my mother was a hard woman, deep down, she loved me and cared about me and wanted me to know that I made her life a little bit brighter. Even now, I find myself waiting.Hey, Mom, knock once if you love me and care about me and want me to know I made your life a little bit brighter.[owl chirping]My mother did not gogentleinto that good night. She went clawing and fighting and thrashing, hence the face.[groaning][mourners gasping]If you’d seen her, I swear to God the only thing you’d be thinking about right now is that I amnailingthis impression.[woman clears her throat][chairs squeak]I was in the hospital with her those last moments, and they were truly horrifying, full of nonsencial screams and cries, but there was this moment, this one instant of strange calm, where she looked in my direction and said, “I see you.” That’s the last thing she said to me. “I see you.” Not a statement of judgment or disappointment, just acceptance and the simple recognition of another person in a room. “Hello there. You are a person. And I see you.”Let me tell you, it’s a weird thing to feel at 54 years old, that for the first time in your life your mother sees you. It’s an odd realization that that’s the thing you’ve been missing, the only thing you wanted all along, to be seen. And it doesn’t feel like a relief, to finally be seen. It feelsmean, like, “Oh, it turns out that you knew what I wanted, and you waited until the very last moment to give it to me.” I was prepared for more cruelty. I was sure that she would get in one final zinger about how I let her down, and about how I was fat and stupid and too tall to be an effective Lindy-hopper. How I was needy and a burden and an embarrassment—all that I was ready for. I was not ready for“I see you.”Only my mother would be lousy enough to swipe me with a moment of connection on her way out.Butmaybe I’m giving her too much credit. Maybe it wasn’t about connection. Maybe it was a… maybe it was an “I see you,” like, uh, “I see you.” Like, “You might have the rest of the world fooled, but I know exactly who you are.”That’smore my mom’s speed.Or maybe she just literally meant “I see you. You are an object that has entered my field of vision.” She was pretty out of it at the end, so maybe it’s dumb to try to attribute it to anything.[woman sighs]Back in the 90s, I was in a very famous TV show calledHorsin’ Around.[man coughs]Please hold your applause. And I remember one time, a fan asked me, “Hey, um, you know that episode where the horse has to give Ethan a pep talk after Ethan finds out his crush only asked him to the dance because her friends were having a dorkiest date contest? In all the shots of the horse, you can see a paper coffee cup on the kitchen counter, but in the shots of Ethan, the coffee cup’s missing. Was that because the show was making a statement about the fluctuant subjectivity of memory and how even two people can experience the same moment in entirely different ways?” And I didn’t have the heart to be, like, “No, man, some crew guy just left their coffee cup in the shot.” So instead, I was, like… “Yeah.”And maybe this is like that coffee cup. Maybe we’re dumb to try to pin significance onto every little thing. Maybe when someone says, “I see you,” it just means, “I see you.” Then again, it’s possible she wasn’t even talking to me because, if I’m being honest, she wasn’t really looking at me. She was looking just past me. There was nobody else in the room, so I want to think she was talking to me, but, honestly, she was so far gone at that point, who knows what she was seeing? Who were you talking to, Mom? [sighs] Not saying, huh? Staying mum? No rimshot there? God, whatever I’m paying you, it’s too much.Maybe she saw my dad. My dad died about ten years ago of injuries he sustained during a duel. When your father dies, you ask yourself a lot of questions. Questions like, “Wait, did you say he died in aduel?” and “Who dies in aduel?” The whole thing was so stupid. Dad spent his entire life writing this book, but he couldn’t get any stores to carry it or any newspapers to review it. Finally, I guess this one newspaper thought he was pretty hilarious, because they ran a review and tore him to shreds. So my father, ever the proud Mary, decided he would not stand for this besmirchment of his honor. He claimed the critic didn’t understand what it meant to be a man, so he demanded satisfaction in the form of pistols at dawn. He wrote the paper this letter, saying anyone who didn’t like his book, he would challenge to a duel, anyone in the world. He’d even pay for airfare to San Francisco and a night in a hotel. Well, eventually this found its way to some kook in Montana, who was as batshit as he was and took him up on the offer. They met at Golden Gate Park and agreed: ten paces, then shoot. But in the middle of the ten paces, Dad turned to ask the guy if he’d actually read the book and what he thought, but, not looking where he was going, tripped over an exposed root and bashed his head on a rock.[murmur]I wish I’d known to go to Jack in the Box then. Maybe I could have gotten a free churro. It would’ve been nice to have something to show for being the son of Butterscotch Horseman. My darling mother gave the eulogy. My entire life I never heard her say a kind word toorabout my father, but at his funeral she said, “My husband is dead, and everything is worse now.”“My husband is dead, and everything is worse now.” I don’t know why she said that. Maybe she felt like that’s the kind of thing you’re supposed to say at a funeral. Maybe she hoped one day someone would say that about her. “My mother is dead, and everything is worse now.” Or maybe she knew that he had frittered away all her inheritance, and replaced it with crippling debt, which is a pretty shitty thing to leave your widow with. “Bad news, you lost a husband, but don’t worry, you also lost the house!” Maybe Mom knew she’d have to sell all her fancy jewelry and move into a home. Maybe that’s what she meant by “everything is worse now.” Is that what you meant, Mom?I gotta say, I’m really carrying this double act. At least with Penn and Teller, the quiet one does card tricks. Hey, piano man, when I say something funny to my mom, how about you give me one of those rimshots?[rimshot plays]Yeah, but not now. When I say something funny. Like, okay. What’s the difference between my mother and a disruptive expulsion of germs? One’s a coughin’ fit and the other fits a coffin! That’s an example of a funny thing.[rimshot plays]Thank you. Let’s try again. Hey, Mom. What’s the difference between my mother and a bunch of Easter eggs? One gets carried in a basket, the other gets buried in a casket![rimshot plays]Ready for one more? Last one. What’s the difference between a first-year lit major and my mother, Beatrice Horseman? One is decently read, and the other’s a huge bitch![woman gasps][murmurs]Yeah, might have gone a little too far with that one. That one might’ve been a little too “my mom’s a huge bitch” for the room. I’m sorry, Mother. You’re not a huge bitch. Youwerea huge bitch… and now you’re dead.[woman sighs]You know, the first time I ever performed in front of an audience, it actually was, uh, with my mom. She used to put on these shows with her supper club in the living room and she used to make… [inhales] She used to make me sing “The Lollipop Song.”[organ playing tune]Those parties, they were really something. There were skits and magic acts, and ethnically insensitive vaudeville routines, and thebigfinale was always a dance my mother did. She had this beautiful dress that she only brought out for these parties, and she did this incredible number. It was so beautiful and sad. Dad hated the parties. He’d lock himself in the study, and bang on the walls for us to keep it down, but he always came out to see Mom dance. He’d linger in the doorway, scotch in hand, and watch in awe, as this cynical, despicable woman he married… took flight. And as a child who was completely terrified of both my parents, I was always aware that this moment of grace, it meant something. We understood each other in a way. Me and my mom and my dad, as screwed up as we all were, we did understand each other. My mother, she knew what it’s like to feel your entire life like you’re drowning, with the exception of these moments, these very rare, brief instances, in which you suddenly remember… you can swim.[flashback][partygoers laughing][classical music playing]But then again, mostly not. Mostly you’re drowning. She understood that, too. And she recognized that I understood it. And Dad. All three of us were drowning, and we didn’t know how to save each other, but there was an understanding that we were all drowning together. And I would like to think that that’s what she meant when we were in the hospital and she said, “I see you.”You know, the weird thing about both your parents being dead is it means that you’re next. I mean, you know, obviously it’s not like there’s a waitlist for dying. Any one of us could get run over by a Snapchatting teen at any moment. And you would think that knowing that would make us more adventurous, and kind, and forgiving. But it makes us small, and stupid, and petty.I actually had a near-death experience recently. A stunt went bad and I fell off a building. I’m an actor, I do my own stunts. I’m on this new show Philbert. I’m Philbert. Star of the show. It hasn’t come out yet, but it’s already getting Emmy buzz. Oh, speaking of buzz… [inhales] I’m supposed to take two of these every morning, but my days are so screwed up ‘cause of the shooting schedule, I don’t even know what morning means anymore. There’s a joke in there somewhere, about a guy who’s been to so many funerals, he doesn’t even know what mourning means anymore. Let you guys figure that one out for yourselves. [gulps]Anyway, you know what I thought, when I was falling off the building and I went into panic mode? The last thing that my stupid brain could come up with before I died? “Won’t they be sorry.” Cool thought, brain.[rimshot plays]No, that wasn’t… would you just… dial it back, all right?I don’t even know what“they”I wanted to be sorry. My mom, even before she died, could barely remember who I was. And of course, my dad’s dead. The last conversation I ever had with him was about his novel. He was so certain this book was his legacy. Maybe he thought it would vindicate him for all the shitty things he ever did in his stupid worthless life. Maybe it did, I don’t know. I never read it, because why would I give him that?I used to be on this TV show calledHorsin’ Around. Seriously, though, hold your applause.[man coughs]Well held. It was written by my friend Herb Kazzaz, who’s also dead now, and it starred this little girl named Sarah Lynn. And it was about these orphans. And early on, the network had a note, “Maybe don’t mention they’re orphans so much, because audiences tend to find orphans sad and not relatable.” But I never thought that the orphans were sad. I-I always thought they were lucky, because they could imagine their parents to be anything they wanted. They had something to long for.Anyway, we did this one season finale, where Olivia’s birth mother comes to town. And she was a junkie, but she’s gotten herself cleaned up, and she wants to be in Olivia’s life again. And of course, she’s like a perfect grown-up version of Olivia, and they go to the mall together and get her ears pierced like she’s always wanted and—sorry, spoiler alert for the season six finale ofHorsin’ Around, if you’re still working your way through it. Anyway, the horse tries to warn her, “Be careful, moms have a way of letting you down.” But Olivia just thinks the horse is jealous, and when the mom says she’s moving to California, Olivia decides to go with her. And the network really juiced the cliffhanger: “Is Olivia gone for good?” But of course, because it’s a TV show, she was not gone for good. Of course, because it’s a TV show, Olivia’s mother had a relapse and had to go back to rehab, so Olivia had to hitchhike all the way home, getting rides from Mr. T, Alf, and the cast ofStomp. Of course, that’s what happened. Because, what are you gonna do, just not have Olivia on the show? You can’t have happy endings in sitcoms, not really, because, if everyone’s happy, the show would be over, and above all else, the show… has to keep going. There’s always more show. And you can callHorsin’ Arounddumb, or bad, or unrealistic, but there is nothing more realistic than that. You never get a happy ending, ‘cause there’s always more show.I guess until there isn’t.[chuckles]My mom would hate it if she knew that I spent so much time at her funeral talking about my old TV show. Or maybe she’d think it was funny that her idiot son couldn’t even do this right. Who knows? She left no instructions for what she wanted me to say. All I know is she wanted an open casket, and her idiot son couldn’t even do that right. I’m not gonna stand up here and pretend I ever understood how to please that woman, even though so much of my life has been wasted in vain attempts to figure it out. But I keep going back to that moment in the ICU when she looked at me, and… “I-C-U.”“I… see… you.” Jesus Christ, we were in the intensive care unit. She was just reading a sign. My mom died and all I got was this free churro.You know the shittiest thing about all of this? Is when that stranger behind the counter gave me that free churro, that small act of kindness showed more compassion than my mother gave me her entire goddamn life. Like, how hard is it to do something nice for a person? This woman at the Jack in the Box didn’t even know me. I’m your son! All I had was you! [inhales]I have this friend. And right around when I first met her, her dad died, and I actually went with her to the funeral. And months later, she told me that she didn’t understand why she was still upset, because she never even liked her father. It made sense to me, because I went through the same thing when my dad died. And I’m going through the same thing now. You know what it’s like? It’s like that showBecker, you know, with Ted Danson? I watched the entire run of that show, hoping that it would get better, and it never did. It had all the right pieces, but it just—it couldn’t put them together. And when it got canceled, I was really bummed out, not because I liked the show, but because I knew it could be so much better, and now it never would be. And that’s what losing a parent is like. It’s likeBecker.Suddenly, you realize you’ll never have the good relationship you wanted, and as long as they were alive, even though you’d never admit it, part of you, the stupidest goddamn part of you, was still holding on to that chance. And you didn’t even realize it until that chance went away.My mother is dead, and everything is worse now, because now I know I will never have a mother who looks at me from across a room and says, “BoJack Horseman, I see you.” But I guess it’s good to know. It’s good to know that there is nobody looking out for me, that there never was, and there never will be. No, it’s good to know that I am the only one that I can depend on. And I know that now and it’s good. It’s good that I know that. So… it’s good my mother is dead.[gulps, sighs]Well. No point beating a dead horse. Beatrice Horseman was born in 1938, and she died in 2018, and I have no idea… what she wanted. Unless she just wanted what we all want… to be seen.Is this Funeral Parlor B?

2018年，马男波杰克突然在社交网络上走红。

一时间占领了微博微信，及许多人的社交头像，原因是“丧”对话引起了人们内心深处的认同。

马男波杰克被誉为“毒鸡汤”，是因为这部剧没有幻想未来的美好，而是讲述现实的残酷。

马男波杰克是人们内心的缩影，他自私自利无所事事甚至嗑药吸毒，他也渴望亲情渴望爱情，内心深处也有柔软。

原生家庭剥夺了他的快乐和自信，他的内心深处渴望认同，他的一生都在期待母亲对她的夸奖和认同。

他的人生是狂欢后的一地狼藉，他从未在大型典礼、派对中获得的快乐。

相反，他感到迷失，感到迷茫。

他不会爱人，也不会被爱。

他错过了鹿，赶到新墨西哥时，鹿已结婚生女。

他妄图与鹿私奔，但鹿觉得自己的生活很幸福。

他怅然若，失犯了更大的错误，准备用鹿的女儿代替鹿。

被鹿捉奸在床，责令他离开鹿的生活，他只得开船回到LA。

他永远没有花生酱先生的乐观，他不懂花生酱先生的自信与快乐。

他永远没有陶德的行动力，他瞻前顾后，错失良机。

他用酒精和毒品麻醉自己。

他更像鸵鸟，将头埋在沙中，仿佛可以躲过灾难。

马男波杰克的外祖母被丈夫切除了前额叶，从此失去了情绪，也再也不能思考。

他的母亲因为他而不得不嫁给一个没有前途的人。

他的父亲没有文学前途，却自鸣得意。

他的童年给他的人生奠定了灰暗基调。

他的童年既是不幸的源头，也是他逃避现实的理由，他一次又一次地将童年伤口上的结痂揭下来，露出血肉淋漓的伤口。

他将自己关在童年的笼子里，一遍又一遍地用童年来麻痹自己。

无论失败还是成功他永远都是那个在父母吵架时在角落瑟瑟发抖的小男孩，永远都是那个被母亲嫌弃的小男孩。

马男波杰克，他将人生中最珍视的东西狠狠地砸在地上，让其它们支离破碎，再用劣质的胶水，生疏的技艺将其胡乱地黏在一起。

他爱过黛安，爱过鹿，爱过PC，但他害怕责任，害怕未知。

他错失良机，终将追悔莫及。

胡闹的小马这部剧是他工作的开始，也是结束。

他沉迷于此，大概是因为，他从未有过如此温馨和谐的家庭。

我们也遇到过，遇到过诸多人生中的不顺意，我们也会搞砸，也会逃避，也会面临抉择，也会走错道路。

马男波杰克是一种象征，象征着我们内心中的脆弱，象征着我们所经历的种种挫折。

每个人心中都有一个波杰克 ，他冲动、混蛋、胆小、自私，但是他善良、美好的一面也在熠熠闪光。

马男波杰克，这部剧吸引我们的也许就是：哪怕生活是一地鸡毛，我们也得艰难前行。

也许山重水复之后，没有柳暗花明，我们也得继续寻找，在这个冰冷的世界里寻找，寻找属于自己的慰籍。

I was so blown by the genius of the director at the last but one episode when Bojack overdosed and cannot tell the difference between set scene and reality. Yea, obviously he’s got a problem or maybe even a bunch of problems to face up to, who says we haven’t? But it is not as simple as who you are or who you want to be, it’s the environment you live in and the connections you engage in that determine what you are and what you should be. Like Diane said and I paraphrase:“U can be bad and do bad stuff, but you cannot justify your deeds like it is right, ‘cause it is not right.” That said, the journey of discovering the true inner self and striving to be a good man can never stop. Good luck, to all of us.

重刷马男，第五季给我感触可以称得上最大？

等再看一遍第六季也许又会变了，但至少目前是这样。

分人物讲讲吧。

戴安和花生酱先生离婚那一段可以说是我记得非常清楚的了，去越南，看见花生酱和酸黄瓜接吻，戴安在车上的大哭，不同地区变换而同样的孤独，“我不知道为什么我让一切变得那么糟糕。

”她和花生酱先生之间并不是不爱所以离婚，而是不合适，我想这更痛苦吧。

她待在越南的酒店换上旗袍戴上草帽的那个场面我记得很清楚。

第五季的戴安可以说是“脆弱”“边缘”，真的很需要心理医生纾解，问题太多了。

花生酱先生其实是我最喜欢的角色，和卡洛琳公主一样。

这季讲了花生酱先生的四段婚姻，戴安说“你一直在和二十多岁的女孩子恋爱”。

每一段婚姻都是最青春的十年，然后女孩长大了，但花生酱先生仍旧还是二十多岁的样子。

永远活力，被人喜爱，所有人的好朋友。

第二季还是第三季里花生酱和戴安说，你不在家的时候我大部分时间都在发呆，转来转去然后等你回来。

你是我的全世界那种感觉真的很让人动容，他爱人就是全心全意然后付出自己一切，绕着你疯狂转然后给你惊喜的那种感觉，每一任一开始应该都很喜欢，花生酱先生一直以来也就是想要大家都喜欢他，爱他。

但后来，生活哪来那么多阳春白雪，真是一地鸡毛，不善于倾听应该是他最大的缺陷了。

戴安和花生酱做了之后，花生酱也是说要和戴安复合，酸黄瓜是个好女孩。

这个被戴安驳回了，他们的确不适合在一起，但我还是觉得花生酱在四个婚姻里最爱的是戴安，就像是他之前说的，我还爱着戴安，从没忘记过。

很可惜，真的很可惜。

然后是卡洛琳公主，和男友分手（猫和老鼠恋爱阻碍太多，也错过了），事业受挫，选择领养之后一直奔走，犹大离开之后她也变得更忙更忙了，这季讲了卡洛琳公主的过去，流产五次，第一次是和那个狐狸（这段真的很有感触），猫妈送的项链是不值钱的货，但是给她很大勇气，上飞机之前猫妈说的再等一年被卡洛琳拒绝那里，拉尔夫想复合被拒绝那里，真想为她欢呼，她值得最好的，不要停滞于此啊！

陶德本季做了主管，和无性恋女友短暂在一起又分手，两个人除了都是无性恋之外没有任何共同之处，约定一百岁你未婚我未嫁就再试试看，真是他的作风。

不过话说回来陶德真的能力太强，工作都很厉害，满脑子点子而且单纯且专一，简历也无敌。

他是一个奉献式的角色，也是全剧的金手指和“单纯”担当吧，其实蛮希望他能和艾米丽在一起的，做了sex机器人结果变成自己boss，很讽刺的处理，最后陶德在自己的秘密基地毁掉机器人，“i love you ，father”，很犯规。

然后陶德把西装撕掉，里面是自己的红卫衣运动裤，在夕阳中离去。

很感动很感动。

吉娜，不知为何我觉得她其实应该是做了一个“救赎”的角色，至少这一季是他的稻草之一。

马男在杀青后还了解她的一切，为了偷药跑去人家家里告白？

为她争取唱歌的机会，希望自己能帮助吉娜。

送礼物，精神混乱之后在聚光灯下两个人接吻，同居，吉娜在受伤后每天去看他。

马男说“她在我身边这让我感觉很好”“我要保护吉娜”的时候能感觉真挺在乎的，但是伤害她的也是他，很糟糕。

最后是马男，马男在这一季里要讲的真的太多太多了。

前几季的事情叠加起来在这季开始逐渐达到峰值而且逐渐转化。

第六集波杰克的独白可以说是全季神集，很有局外人开头的感觉，我妈妈死了所以我得到了免费油条，不断提起的i see you和最后才发觉的icu，我妈妈死了所以一切变得更糟了，因为你知道有些事情本来可以变好但是已经没机会了，最后开棺发现走错了葬礼厅，和第三季我最喜欢的那集海底世界有异曲同工之妙，糊掉的道歉纸条，走错的葬礼，马男的一生其实都好像在不停的犯错，后悔，和错过。

父母的死亡彻底结束了他一直想要得到的亲情和认可，某种意义上不是解脱，反而让他更脆弱。

想得到赞同，得到支持和喜欢，想被看见，所以稀里糊涂做女权主义者，想改变自己而尝试戒酒戒毒，然后还是在暴走，瘾之间做错更多的事情。

上一季多出来的妹妹让他稍微好了一点，吉娜的陪伴让他又好了一点，但做错的事太多太多了。

菲尔伯特的拍摄，现实和剧情不断交叠的几集做得非常非常好，波杰克说：“被波杰克做错事伤害最深的人就是我自己”，他一直在堕落中挣扎又堕落，想改变但一切都为时已晚。

恐慌一切都会被发现，恐慌身边人的离开，他想要原谅自己，但这其实也是错的，因为不敢直视错误，就像是戴安说的，菲尔伯特不是让你感觉自己不错，而是让你认清自己的错误，就像是枪支电影那里制片人说的，为什么现实里总有这么多枪支案阻止我们美化枪击。

影视人物的错不是为了让你感觉自我良好，每个人都会犯错的。

多个人物堆积推动导致波杰克特效出事，然后住院以另一种方式药物上瘾，然后逐渐严重，甚至让我感觉比前几季更严重，他答应霍莉霍克会照顾好自己，但犯瘾后主动开车撞出事然后继续住院，嗑药达到巅峰，精神脆弱没有治疗加上入戏，分不清片场和现实，最后导致伤害吉娜，这个他想要保护的女孩。

正如所言，再次搞砸了，这次是完完全全的。

因为是二刷所以对很多地方感触不同了，马男每一季或多或少都有改过之心，但总有东西推动搞砸，想放逐自己去墨西哥然后差点和初恋的女儿酿成大祸，想和帮自己奥斯卡的经理人在一起然后over，想和萨拉琳重新来过然后间接导致萨拉琳死亡，想自杀然后看见奔跑的马群，想拍好骄马结果全部变成特效，想保护吉娜然后变成伤害她的人。

记得很清楚第三季安娜说的救生员故事，有人不可以救，因为他会拉着你共沉沦。

马男似乎就是这样一个角色，或者说剧里像是戴安，甚至花生酱都在说这个事，为什么我总是把事情搞砸？

而这一季尾马男想要找戴安把所有事坦白，但被拒绝，然后被戴安送到戒毒所。

即使说出来也没有任何意义，你需要改变自己。

故事以马男和戴安在戒毒所门前的见面告终。

或许第一次看我会想“会变好吗？

”但我是重刷，所以我知道，只会更糟糕。

生活就是一系列简单悲剧的复杂重合，堕落太简单，但要赎罪无比艰难。

应该说每个人的悲剧都不是独一的，而是无数悲剧叠加产生的。

马男波杰克中一个重点也是“原生家庭”，马男，戴安，萨拉琳，卡洛琳公主等的原生家庭都给他们造成了很大影响，而往上父母的悲剧也来自祖辈，都绝不是说“我要改变”就可以重新来过的，但还是要继续，要和“错误”切断关系，继续走下去。

其实不太清楚马男给我的影响是好还是坏比较多，第一次看完时丧了很长一段时间，二刷也是一直在思考，但还是那句话吧，在虚拟世界寻找真实的人脑子一定有问题，如果我一直执着要在这里扣出点加油的鸡汤，那还不如去看很多励志片。

此外，本季提到的女权，上一季的政治，污点人物复出，以及大量的不同人物生活和故事描写，都给我很深的思考，马男之后要何去何从呢？

答案其实再清楚不过了。

还是要说菲尔伯特那段做得太巧妙，他可能也很想把自己和做错事的自己剔除开，就像是臆想出的搭档，但最后，毁掉自己的还是自己。

很喜欢这一季的海报，那个庞大的飞在空中的马男气球，和仰头看着气球的波杰克。

气球就像是以往的所有错事，紧紧的跟随着他，脆弱，巨大且一触即发。

没错，大热的美剧《马男波杰克》于上周五回归了，Netflix还是豪爽的一次性放出了十二集，相信不少小伙伴把周末的时间都用在了上面。

豆瓣上的评分目前停留在9.3，IMDB本季平均分8.89，高于全集平均分8.5，口碑热度都在持续上涨中。

马男系列，一直以来都以独特的‘丧’闻名海内外。

出自马男波杰克的截图不知道养活了多少朋友圈鸡汤和微博段子手。

在这个时代大多数的影视作品都追求爽快刺激，间或满足一下人们的英雄梦想，从前段时间大热的碟中谍到漫威十年布局的复仇者联盟，走的都是这个路数。

也有一些片子幽默搞怪，吐槽辛辣，让人在轻松中逃避现实，美国动画常青树南方公园和著名美剧生活大爆炸都是此中好手。

但所有这些片子来来回回都只在讲述一个主题，看久了未免审美疲劳。

马男偏偏逆其道行之，讲述的故事却是生活。

马男故事的结构并不复杂，故事的主角马男波杰克是一个过气的好莱坞电视剧演员，自从二十多岁时出演了著名连续剧Horsing Around以后就再也没有能够在事业上取得巅峰。

随着岁月的消逝和经纪人不断的催促打气，他终于决定停止自己的恶性循环，开始找代笔出版自己的自传。

但是伴随了一个人二十多年的酗酒，拖延和消极对待，是不会那么轻易的改变。

于是我们跟着马男一起，看了五年他和他身边的人在各自的性格阴影下挣扎，对抗自己身上的坏习惯。

马男故事的精髓是，每个人身上都有着或多或少的性格缺陷，这些缺陷在不同程度上影响了我们的生活。

我们经常可以看到身边的人甚至是我们自己，有更好的机会在面前，却不抓住，眼睁睁看着机会溜走。

更加痛苦的是，往往我们意识的到究竟是什么在阻碍着自己，但是却没有办法改变。

我们也或许知道改变的办法，但是却缺乏动力的躲回了自我舒适区的小巢，闭起眼睛祈祷黑暗过去。

而黑暗，不会过去。

这一季，波杰克终于（不那么）老老实实的去拍了一部会让他重新火起来的连续剧，他有了一段贯穿全季的异性关系，他终于能够反省自己和妹妹以及母亲的关系，在面对巨大压力时终于没有像悲伤的第三季一样走向完全的自我毁灭，而是成长了，虽然这改变渺小而卑微，虽然这匹54岁的老马恐怕很难改变了，但是这仍然是属于他自己的成长。

比如第五季第一集，波杰克不断的向导演抱怨自己出演的人物台词和剧情不合常理。

导演认为他只是在求关注，并借助这样的方式增强自己的影响力，听起来是不是很丧。

波杰克喜欢上了剧中的女主角，发现她有很多的无意义裸露镜头，便扮演白骑士向导演抗议遮掩的行为物化女性。

导演气急败坏的提出那我们来物化一下男性吧，于是要求拍摄一个54岁老男人波杰克正面全裸的镜头，并给了他两个选择，要么承认自己只是在求关注，导演可以回到原来的方案，波杰克将不会面临一场公关危机；要么波杰克可以死撑下去，拍自己全裸的镜头，但是女主角得以幸免。

波杰克在痛苦中选择了后者，向世界展现了他的无助。

戴安呢？

她终于离了婚，自己踏上了漫长的自我恢复的道路，距离上和工作上都是。

令人惊喜的是她没有在片场与花生酱先生有过多的交际，对于她的历史和她在本剧中作为波杰克镜像的标签来说，都是很惊喜的。

她的成长更加明显，虽然她会被激情带走，但她显然是更加理性的自己。

这一点小小的分化让她终于不再是女性版不知如何是好只知道自我毁灭的波杰克。

她也终于不是任何人的附属品，甚至有一点点准备跟世界讲和的味道。

除此之外，还有波杰克的经纪人卡洛琳公主，她依然是我心中的太阳，是本作中最坚定的正能量。

在上一季中她最终选择和彬彬有礼的爱人分手，准备一个人领养孩子。

在不断的尝试后她终于认清了自己身上的不断燃烧的力量，而当爱人没有办法和自己一起满足自己的梦想时，她必须决定，似乎要选择完美的爱人，还是完美的自己。

当我们长大后，我们终将懂得，每一个选择背后其实并没有那么多的对与错，有的只是选择和适合。

有的时候哪怕自己的选择，要割舍掉手边最美好的事物，这也是不得不做的。

因为你必须屈膝才能跳得更高，必须清空手上的东西才能扛起更重的奖杯。

有舍，才有得。

卡洛琳公主就是这样，回到一个人的生活后她决定完成自己做一个母亲的梦想，做一个母亲，一个爱人，一个女强人，三者兼备她做不到，于是只能割舍。

工作依然不停的撕扯着她的时间，现实中的她在一天的败仗打完后露出的疲惫就是她身上的丧，但这仅仅是表象。

就像她的角色动物---一只猫一样，她骨子是高傲独立绝不臣服。

第五季中我们跟着她回到了出生地，看到了她在少女时代怀孕又流产后是怎么毅然决然的选择离开去追求自己的梦想。

她始终正视着命运的难题却永远都没有被命运击倒，这和她所喜爱的女飞行员Amelia Earheart 一样，勇敢的飞向太阳。

而花生酱先生呢？

看起来是个男版的卡洛琳公主，但是他那明媚的太阳上也有耀斑。

本季用非常精彩的四条时间线交织映射的方式回顾了他四次带着女友去万圣节派对的故事，在时时热情万丈的外表下，我们看到的却是用一个用热情在逃避问题的人，一如用酒精麻醉自己的波杰克。

第三季中，我们跟着花生酱先生和他的妻子戴安回到了他出生的地方，跟着戴安的视角我们理解到花生酱先生是一个始终热情四射的人，他的天性是那样的乐观，似乎什么样的苦难都无法影响他。

如果我们往人物的背景故事里走，会知道他截止第四季结束一共离了三次婚，看起来他那明媚的太阳上也有耀斑。

本季用非常精彩的四条时间线交织映射的方式回顾了他四次带着女友去万圣节派对的故事，每一次他都爱上一个20岁出头的姑娘，却每一次都没能把握住跟她们一起获得幸福的机会，好似在派对上跟她分别半个小时，再找到的就已经不是自己原先认识的那个人了。

他的问题随着故事的发展愈演愈烈，放纵着别人用童话来麻痹自己，但其实他拥有这种理性能力，却不愿意使用。

这恰恰就是他的伪装，也是他的丧。

说完了人物，便不得不提一下本季讲故事的能力。

就单集而言，本季的第六集应该说是夜空中最闪亮的一颗星，在IMDB上单集评分9.9，无限接近满分。

这一成就即使是神剧《瑞克和莫迪》也没有做到过，实在是惊为天人。

更加伟大的是，从片头曲到片尾曲之间，整个故事都只是波杰克在母亲的葬礼上独白，4个不同的镜头角度始终对着波杰克，仅此而已。

故事一开始，是小时候的波杰克一个人在学校操场等待家人接他回家，所有小伙伴都走光了，父亲才姗姗来迟。

上车后父亲就开始不断的责怪波杰克的母亲没给自己做饭，躲在浴室里哭泣就是为了取得自己的注意，全然不顾这是情绪崩溃的表现。

然后父亲开始责怪由于母亲没来接波杰克，自己只能中断状态正好的写作过程，来接波杰克放学，还说这是母亲以身作则教给波杰克的道理，那就是不能依靠女人。

镜头一转，来到波杰克在母亲的葬礼上发言，他讲述了早上来葬礼之前买早饭的故事，店员日常的问他今天如何，他却觉得这样的问法实在是逼着别人说好，将给出坏消息的责任转嫁给了他人，全然不顾这只是一句如同‘吃了吗’一样的打招呼。

接下来，波杰克开始讲自己和母亲的关系，说到自己从小父母不太管，自己只能从电视剧中学习如何与人沟通。

电视剧中，有缺陷的角色总是用夸张的方式来表达他们对爱的理解，但是这不是社会要求我们度过每一天的方式。

社会要求我们每一天都做一个完美的人，认真工作学习，和同事朋友友好相处，碰到问题不能撂挑子不干而是要用于承担……总而言之，就是一般鸡汤里所讲述的种种，但是要做到所有这些，真的很难。

由于父母关系不好，两人都将波杰克当成阻碍自己寻求美好生活的原因，于是对他异常冷漠。

波杰克似乎寻找着特别是母亲的关注和认可，但是每每无法获得，甚至到了在葬礼现场他都无法想到一个母亲在一生中给他关注的例子。

这种对关注的渴望，潜意识的反映在他在葬礼现场为了打破沉默的现场，就假装在跟母亲对话要求母亲回复，玩‘你不说话就当成默认’的游戏。

唯一能想起的关注，只有母亲在临终前，她对波杰克说了一句，’I see you’. 于是波杰克不断的解释自己对于这句话的解释，拼命的想把这句话合理化，想证明母亲在某种程度上还是爱自己的。

自己母亲对自己的关怀和善意，至少应该比早上卖早饭的女孩在知道波杰克母亲去世后给他的一根免费的西班牙油条中蕴含的善意要多。

最后，他终于反应过来，这只是由于母亲看到自己在ICU重症监护室，所以读出了’ICU’三个字而已。

他也终于认识到了残酷的现实，自己终生在追求的母亲的关注，自己从来没有得到过，之后也再也不会得到了。

但正是这样痛彻骨髓的认知，让他终于认识到了自己最深的懦弱，在最深的黑暗中，黑暗也会发光。

这也最终促使他在本季最后，做出了与自己以往都不同的改变。

必须承认，这一季的马男波杰克给了我惊喜。

很多的时候编剧为了省事，不断的给出新角色创造新事件来人为创造冲突，或者挖掘老角色背后的故事来增强人物背后的复杂度，但是这些动作都只是从不同侧面来描写静态的人物。

但是第五季越看越令人觉得有趣，剧组在创作的时候有意识的让人物跟之前有些微的不同，他们不再机械式的重复自己的选择，而是成长了，进化了，而且成长的原因我们都看在眼里。

这是一种绝妙的体验，仿佛看到了灵魂深处的可能。

跟着马男波杰克看了这么久，观众们也随之成长了，我们藉由这个镜子，看到了自己身上的丧，有些人已经成功脱离了不良的状态，大部分人都还在努力挣扎，但是波杰克都能够做出改变，在那样悲惨的家族命运和成长环境下，那么我们呢？

是不是也应该成长呢？

我不是个苛责的人，但是这一季有些许失望。

人物间联系的紧密性和关联性都降低了，而且还是在探讨一些前几季的老梗，缺乏那种感动和纠结。

波杰克，我们已经陪伴他很久，我觉得他应该学会担当和改变，没人会对一个死不悔改的渣男有太多的耐心。

相比于过去总能截图作为金句保存的前几季，这一季有点小失望。

纠结了许久，给3星，期待提高。

五季了，波杰克的成长有目共睹，反而是他身边的人毫无成长。

戴安的愤世嫉俗，花生酱的做事不经过大脑，卡洛琳公主还没明白她想要什么，陶德一整季过去了，又回到了原点。

波杰克的成长其实在于“接受”和“表达”，跟第一季的他相比，这季的波杰克（就结果来说）更诚实，诚实地对待自己，诚实地对待他人。

而且更重要的是，他学会了如何爱人。

其实和波杰克相比，戴安的问题更突显出来——她很善良，她很擅长如何对他人好，却不知道怎么对自己好，也许是她没被教过，也许是她自愿沉溺于悲伤。

在ep9她和马男吵架那里可以看出，是她想知道波杰克过去做过的龌龊事，知道了以后却又嫌弃他（因为说他很辣鸡），与其说她神经质不如说是因为她一直想站在一个道德的制高点，所以拒绝承认波杰克变好的事实，也不愿接受他垃圾的本质。

波杰克一直把戴安当做交心的朋友因为他们很像，其实看到这季最后会觉得其实他们除了丧以外都不像。

马男是向前进的那个，戴安不是。

她太害怕做出改变了。

唯一的好消息大概是花生酱没有跟戴安复合，因为他们真的不合适。

顺便提一嘴波杰克的药。

有确切描写的话，应该是这季ep8（万圣节派对）开始，原因应该是戴安在剧里提出他在新墨西哥的往事，加上碧翠丝过世这件事他想找人倾诉却又不想（不敢）面对这个话题，当然可能还有点是因为他真的背痛。

这样一想，戴安其实才是拖马男后腿的那个。

也许下季波杰克会加油把戴安也拖出泥潭？

另外，不得不说，马男整部剧的想象力无可比拟的，尤其是如何把社会话题合理地塞进剧情这一点，怎么想都觉得不可能有更妙的做法。

因为这种安排就是非常的马男。

很多人说第六集是神作，我觉得不然，11集才是。

11集有点像上一季碧翠丝回忆的那集，将波杰克的精神世界和现实世界完美交织，让观众在能清楚分开哪些是波杰克在剧中的表现的同时，表达波杰克把现实和剧混合起来之后的感受。

再说一嘴，波杰克和吉娜的分手其实很大程度上跟他自己没啥关系，因为可以说他当时已经处于一种精神不太正常（多半因为毒品）的情况，他是不能为自己的行为负责的，所以即使他学会了爱人，编剧仍然把他俩拆散了，所以这不是波杰克的锅，是编剧的锅。

而《菲尔伯特》被停播更不是他的锅啦，只是他为了吉娜做出了牺牲却未得到回报（可能再次对他留下创伤），让人有点为他感到难过。

这季评分下降我很理解，因为本季更少关注波杰克自身的丧，转向社会的丧。

像我这种想在马男这部剧里找共鸣、提醒自己有多丧的人在未经历社会的情况下社会问题有点提不起我的兴趣。

再说了，波杰克已经不那么丧了。

但无论如何，我都还是马男的死忠粉。

毕竟，不管怎样，马男是好起来了，社会还会好起来吗？